Quick note, this is NOT clickbait.
I’ve been around the Bukkit server-modding community for a while now. Not as long as some people, of course, but still a pretty long time nevertheless.
In the 6 years I’ve spent posting thousands of times on both the Bukkit Forums and the Spigot forums, I look back and regret one singular thing about myself: being a self-entitled brat.
Aggressive At Best, Malicious At Worst
I would say that a large majority of the posts I’ve made involved commenting on someone else’s code. In many, or even most of the threads I’ve posted on, I’ve found that my responses tend to assume the worst of intentions. Here’s just one example from late 2015:
While I admit that even now I thought that the post to which I was responding sounded pretentious, that does not justify an equally aggressive response in return. For a developer who is not experienced in writing multithreaded code (the type of developer that tends to be commonly found more often than not), it is understandable that they do not understand the performance implications of Timer as someone like myself (which isn’t to say that I am an expert myself, mind you). In no way was it necessary for me to interject with “Oh.” and “Oh wow!” and even saying “BIG performance penalty.” Not only did this kind of response bring me down to the level of the aforementioned user, it detracted away from the informative aspect of my post. It made me sound childish and juvenile, when the value of the advice I gave should have been given greater emphasis instead of the presentation of my opinion.
Here’s a continuation of the same post:
Again, for a novice user, it makes sense that they are making paradigm mistakes, that is simply the nature of learning programming. The fact that I latched on to their “stupidity” by saying “Just… What is this? You could quite literally […]” rather than simply correcting their error indicates that my criticism was not constructive by intention. It shows that I was more concerned with commenting on the developer rather than the code. It wasn’t necessary for me to add interjections such as “What is this?” and then leading myself into an example that would probably take up 5 lines rather than the 2 lines that I claimed, assuming that the same brace style was used as the author (K&R? No clue honestly what you’re supposed to call it lol).
While the rest of the post is pretty flawed, here’s a golden nugget:
Goodness, the “WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG WRONG”
was not necessary at all. No information of use was
communicated and it shows again that I was interested less
in the information in the first place, and that I was more
interested in deriding the “stupidity” of the author, when
again, these are rookie mistakes. It is completely
understandable to not be
finalizing your fields and
classes as a novice programmer. The fact that the author
failed to do this indicated a lack of experience rather than
ignorance or stupidity as I have portrayed him/her to be.
Lots of unnecessary information was written that would have gone over the author’s head at the end, not sure what exactly my intentions were there. I could honestly have just said “here’s a benchmark” and then posted results (which, as a matter of fact, I had failed to do) and then explained the results rather than making further pretentious and unhelpful comments.
The examples of this same pretentious, bratty attitude continues even farther into the past.
Here’s another post.
Again, I’m at it again with the long string of repeated words with the “NONONONONONONONONONONONONONONONOOONONONONONONONONONONONONO.”
Once again, adding interjections like this is for yet another novice mistake is completely unnecessary. Needing to even consider using this to emphasize a point probably indicates a lack of imagination on my part. An argument should ideally stand on its own without needing to have unnecessary “fluff” such as the long string of “NONONO” in order to draw attention to it. The fact that I did not consider this in the writing of my post again goes to show my lack of consideration of the author’s point of view.
The many thousands of posts I’ve made number too many to all have their place in this blog post, so I’ve selected one of my most popular posts, the minigame tutorial.
This is honestly a completely unnecessary comment. The fact is that this is not even a prime candidate for async code, so I see no reason for someone to even be considering using this in an async context. The targeted audience, intermediate level developers, probably aren’t even well versed in the use of the scheduler anyways (although if you are an intermediate developer and are skilled in the use of the Bukkit scheduler, good on you). I think this was a feeable attempt to assert my own mastery over threading or something, but doing so made me look insecure and again detracts from the main point of the post, which should have been to educate intermediate-level developers on how to take advantage of OOP in order to create a simple minigame. It is ironic that I had to include that comment in there when the post itself contained a number of bugs pointed out by several users, such as here, here, and here. When I myself am having trouble even writing code that compiles, others have written their thanks and support, even after pointing out egregious errors that I have made. When I posted comments that attack users and had aggressive undertones, others who might not even be as skilled developers as I was wrote insightful and friendly comments instead.
I even had the gall to include this comment prior to pasting the post source:
When the code fails to compile, and the post itself doesn’t even look that good, I told others to source my post for its formatting. I thought so highly of myself, so highly of the quality of work that I posted, that I even wanted people to credit me for such a trivial aspect of it, an aspect that looked terrible anyways.
The many examples that I’ve posted paint me as a person lacking self-awareness, brash, aggressive, and an all-around first-class prick. While I’m not a completely changed person yet, recognizing my toxicity has been something of a revelation for me, and I continue to work on actively trying to suppress my propensity for passive-aggressiveness. These examples fail to do justice for the amount of appalling comments that I’ve made, most notably against the Sponge project, comments that I’ve not yet had the opportunity to apologize for.
One of the things that I’ve noticed was the fact that many of my most malicious comments were well-received by people, garnering several likes, such as in the case of the first example. While again, the information was laid out somewhere within the post itself, the lack of comment on the fact that I was basically bullying the author of the resource is something that I now find highly discomforting.
The people who have been influenced by my comments have already been affected, and there’s really nothing I can do about it. I believe that by removing or editing out the comments I’ve made, I will have destroyed and hidden something that actually happened, and thus those posts will remain untouched. And while I cannot change what has already been said, I can help prevent people from making the same mistake as I did, the mistake of being a complete self-entitled brat. Again, this is an issue that I continue to deal with writing comments on the Spigot forums, and even carefully thinking about my words will not prevent everything from slipping through. But by sharing my experience, I hope I can continue to improve.
Update 2019-08-25 02:12
I realized today that I have inadvertently deleted my account because I had removed my Twitch, which I forgot had acquired Curse.
So much for leaving the posts up as I had said…
I’m sure there are many examples of this same behavior on my SpigotMC profile anyways. The important thing here is not the individual posts themselves, but the lesson that I’ve learned and hope to pass on to others.